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Sep. 16th, 2011 07:37 pmI was just trying to sort through my files and I had a surreal moment. The center that had been missing in my life is back.
We didn't do religion after my mother was killed. She was the one with faith, and, well, my father buried himself in work like it would somehow allow him to make up for the fact that she was killed by a gangster who didn't like what he was doing. Even in the face of the unjust and the corrupt, my father believed in law and order.
Kind of hard for a kid to ignore that, and I would have gone to be a cop if it wouldn't have broken my father's heart. I don't blame him for that, in fact I'm thankful. I know how to fight the good fight in the feild and in a court room, and I lost it because a villain decided to go for a mis-trial by forcing me to break attourney client privilege. I may have also thrown him through a wall.
And just like that, it didn't matter. The time spent reinforcing the sense of multi-univeral law stopped mattering. I got wreckless, and, even with the good times, something was missing. Something that's back now. It's fantastic, even as I end up buried in paperwork and research for the foreseeable future.
We didn't do religion after my mother was killed. She was the one with faith, and, well, my father buried himself in work like it would somehow allow him to make up for the fact that she was killed by a gangster who didn't like what he was doing. Even in the face of the unjust and the corrupt, my father believed in law and order.
Kind of hard for a kid to ignore that, and I would have gone to be a cop if it wouldn't have broken my father's heart. I don't blame him for that, in fact I'm thankful. I know how to fight the good fight in the feild and in a court room, and I lost it because a villain decided to go for a mis-trial by forcing me to break attourney client privilege.
And just like that, it didn't matter. The time spent reinforcing the sense of multi-univeral law stopped mattering. I got wreckless, and, even with the good times, something was missing. Something that's back now. It's fantastic, even as I end up buried in paperwork and research for the foreseeable future.
